#4—Singularity: Part One
Creation Date: 2022/11/29
Prep Talk—
Before I write my first blog article related to my first experience in an Office of Mental Health affiliated program, I am going to write here in my first article on singularity that will be written in many parts now and at moments between blog articles that detail my experiences in the revolving door that is the current state of mental health related inpatient and outpatient facilities and programs. But I want to explain as best as I can what I believe singularity is. So, here goes.
What is Singularity—
Singularity to me is a living state of being whereby I feel separated from my life in Christ, Jesus, my familia and my companions. It's a state of living wherein I feel I am up against the world trying to keep calm and carry on, but the sheer amount of negative interactions I have had in life came to a head in the year 2010. I had been stressed in life for what I wanted to believe would be the last time leading to myself taking steps to effect meaningful change in my life. I wanted to take charge of my future. I wanted to lay to rest trauma from the past that was stressing my emotions as a person, a young adult wanting to create my place in this world.
Singularity is somewhat of a passive life state; one person believing that they have the rights of single entity to make people in authoritative positions do what I ask of them. Making authority work for me became a life lesson in that I learned one person seeking a better life has little or no significance to people who have authority to make change unless I was willing to give something in return for their assistance. Another lesson was that I, as a trauma-after-trauma survivor, and my demand for changes and accountability means nothing to governing bodies who come to a consensus on actions democratically. For example, in Office of Mental Health affiliated programs and services, it is never one Doctor or Physician that oversees the operation. There is a professional buddy system in place where at the least 2 Doctors collaborate to retain a subject. It might have something to do with liabilities, I don't know. What I do know now is that once I was in the Office of Mental Health's affiliated programs and services, I am not and will not be me ever again.
Singularity is not always a stressful living state of being. It can come in many forms. Singularity has been a great state to be in when working in academia. Singularity is not great in social situations or attempting to find work. In social situations, multiplicity should be a goal for me. Make connections, get to know people, have a good time! I seem to have found that in a living state of singularity, it is extremely difficult to find work if I don't have an "in", like if I don't already know someone at the business, even if I have given references when applying. Quite frankly, the ideals found in Republics such as being able to find work in an establishment by simply being your own advocate and point of reference means little in a democratized business atmosphere. Let me digress back to singularity in terms of an emotional state.
When emotions begin to affect my abilities to be at peace and experience joy, I tend to resort to academia and leave the multiplicity of companionship and social well-being. Singularity allows me to think about who I am and who I am not, what I would like from multiplicity apart from social groups, social life and whatever lifestyles I am experiencing from others, and think about where or what I want to be years from these times. Like, what can I attempt to learn so that I can contribute to the world consciousness. When I feel like entering a state of singularity, this is how I approach what I feel I should do after negative social experiences.
Singularity wherein I feel that I need to relax without seeking academic stimulation, so that I can try to calm nerves and get meanial negative experiences out of my visuals and thought processes so I can eventually get back to multiplicity with time is what I also incorporated into a life routine of mine.
Living states of singularity in such ways I had incorporated into how I had been living life up until I felt I was suffering, and I said to myself I shall suffer no more, seeking assistance from who I thought would help me quell the emotions from trauma that I couldn't quite get a handle on
Pep Talk—
To end this blog article on the first of many "singularity" articles to be written in parts as I navigate my memorial processes so that I may write my experiences as a client of Office of Mental Health affiliated programs, I want to write that living states of singularity allow me to check in on my mentalities when approaching what's next in my life. My mentality as I have written previously in other blog articles allows me to go in, have, and come out with the best attitude and with wisdom from any experience, starting with "C'est la vie!" and finishing with the wisdom of what I have in my immediate control, the wisdom acquired during the experience in understanding what I cannot control, and the experience gained to understand the multiplicity and how I should be interacting with my environment, with other people, to progress and live for what's next, and how I can best learn and contribute from and after the next experience.
I am going to dedicate this blog article to my mid 20's self.